It's not something I recently discovered. I feel like there are seas of opportunity but I dare not continue the journey. Each time I set out, I back down. At the end of the day, I remained stagnant to where I was. I blamed almost everything and everyone around me because I dare not deal with the consequences of my action and take extra responsibility. I do everything and anything I like because I think I am good in that. Reality begs to differ. I dare not move further beyond my envisioned world. My visions and ambitions had enlarged but my willpower have not expanded. The environment will change, but can i adapt? My main concern now is my final exams, I really want to score all As and get GPA of 4 this semester. However, comparisons of answers can be really daunting. Going to head out to the working world where dog eat dogs. I am terrified by thought of it. I used to remember how I thought life is a bed of roses without the thorns. Now it seems, life is a bed of grasses and thorns. Every where you step, you have to look out for shits on the ground. This post is not supposed to be interpreted in a sad depressing manner. I am thankful for what I have. Seeing some others' and their misfortunes really spark the humbleness to what I have. Comparing myself with the fortunate ones of course, made me felt useless at times. At the end of the day, they say it's how you lived your life on earth. I know God is real! It's just that my bad doings had shunned Him away from me. So, probably my next goal is to be baptized.
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